I'm in the same boat. My RABF left me because he told me he didn't want to drag me down this road with him so he told me I need to let go of him. We still see each other too and stayed friends. I keep racking my brain about letting him go or just stay and try to be part of his support system. But I hear this voice saying "Don't worry, stick with him. It'll be worth the pain". I feel like I'm crazy!!! Maybe it's God. Maybe it's my crazy self - I don't know. But I feel you!