I've tried to stop drinking but I just cant see the point anymore after the first couple of days of sweating and shaking I started to feel really down and anxious I thought I'd feel better but I feel worse.
I'm so miserable , its all too much I'm so anxious I cant even leave the house or go to the shop I* end up sitting on my arse all day watching telly.
This is no way to live, I cant go on like this.
*Without drinking there's just no escape from it all.
I tried to go to an AA meeting but it didn't feel right.
I just have to get out of my head for one night I realise now the only thing making my life bearable was alcohol . I'm going to start drinking again. I've already lost everything good in my life so I figure I've got nothing left to lose now by drinking again. I'm sorry everyone I don't know how you all do it but I cant.
I feel stupid for joining this forum in the first place and stupid for calling myself an alcoholic when I'm too young.
goodbye
