Hi Gabriel. Welcome to SR! This is a good place to get support and information.
Originally Posted by
Gabriel1 
If I continue on this path, it is only a matter of time before I hit bottom.
Gabriel
I just want to say that this statement is true, but it misses the point a bit. If you keep going, all that you are doing - literally every single day - is making your bottom lower. If you accept that you have a serious problem with alcohol, are willing to change, and take actions to recover, your bottom does not need to be any lower. Make a choice to jump off this elevator. There are lots of folks here to support you.
Good job so far!