I found SR when I was sick of the cycle and had to quit, too. I was actually even sick of being sick of the cycle if that makes any sense , and it just might.
My first time here I saw mention of AVRT/RR , there are really great threads on these ideas here on SR in the Secular Connections forum. Those ideas really resonated with me, I recommend checking them out.
Wish you well and hope to see you around, and congratulations, you have quit, don't start again , ever.
Come back often, read, post , ask, and come back often