Sounds like you really want to quit. Seeing a doctor would probably be the best way to start. They may give you something to help you get started. No one can do this for you. You have to find other ways to spend your time that you would have been drinking. It's not easy at first, it's going to feel a little uncomfortable. You need to do it for your kids if not only for you. Keep coming back here and reading and posting. There's a lot of people here that want to help you. Welcome to SR!