Originally Posted by
Grymt 
Sorry, it just seems to go round and round and round.
ok, pot is the thing that prevents you from drinking. You want to not drink. Not enough pot. ? Look I get it. Been there done that kind of thing. For me it had a lot to do with grieving. Not being able to let go and cry. Do you think there is an emotional block inside that meakes this so hard?
No worries, well I probably have less of a reson to cry then most. We all hurt somehow. I don't begin drinking to stop any pain. I do it because in my head a beer sounds like a good idea. I only can't stop drinking because of withdrawals and it goes on for a few days. I am the luckiest person in the world. Sure I could use a good cry etc but my real problems are nothing compared to people in this world who are in danger or their family is in crisis or war. Life is not fair and I can accept that. I want to love and live each day to the max. When I drink I smear my reality and my life is a waste. I am eager to keep on the road to recovering from alcoholism.