I don't have time to go to meetings and I have read a lot of materials on sobriety. The problem is right now I am not triggered, next week not triggered, few months I probably can go maybe more. But my fear is some day being ok with getting drunk is going to creep into my mind. I want to win...... I need to remember now
I'm not saying you have to go to meetings but to stop sliding back in a week or a month or a year, you need to make time for your recovery.
It needs to be a real commitment, in action as well as thought.
Musical example: when I first picked up a guitar I found the time to practice 8 hours or more a day, even with a job etc, cos I loved it so much.
I needed that time - I wanted to get good, and I eventually got proficient enough to make it one of my careers.
Now I hardly 'practice' at all - but I still pick a guitar everyday.
I think that recovery needs that same kind of dedication, and dare I say it love/passion.
You need to want it.
I didn't love being sober in the beginning, but I sure as heck love it now.
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