Fake it until you make it!
Only step you have to do perfect is 1.
I was able to white knuckle days, weeks, months and even years of sobriety but I was just as miserable as I was drinking. AA has given me sobriety and happiness. I am recovered because of the steps that I didn't believe or want to do. Me navigating my life got me drunk, arrested for DUI, verge of losing my job, getting demoted from management, divorced and losing my friends. One of my first AA meetings someone said, you've tried to lead your life for x number of years and look what it got you, give your HP control for 90 days and see what happens.