I am thankful I am sleeping inside my house even though it's the couch and I am very thankful I didn't hurt anyone or get arrested. I am thankful my wife doesn't want a divorce (I hope). I have 3 beautiful children that I love so much and I don't want to ruin their life's. I am a loving and kind person who hugs everyone and loves life. I have always associated fun with getting messed up. I am scared to be around anyone or talk to anyone because I am so ashamed.... thanks for listening. I honestly have nobody I can talk to aside from my wife and she is sick of hearing my bs.