I'm sorry for your loss.
For me I had to accept tat my relationship with alcohol is toxic - sooner or later I'll be back at square one in the most disastrous way.
I've been reading Sebastian Bach;s biog recently. He said something that made sense to me - 'I don't get into trouble every time I drink - but every time I get into trouble, drinking is involved'.
Food for thought?
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