Originally Posted by
steve-in-kville 
I need to protect my sobriety, not toy with the idea I will be able to drink "normally" at some point in the future!
Perhaps you are getting the second part of the first step directions. "The delusion that we are like other peolple,
or presently maybe, has to be smashed".
That delusion will always undermine any effort at recovery. Why go to any lengths when we still hold on to the old idea that one day we will be able to drink normally?