Try to take it one day at a time. I have found that attending online meetings, talking to my sponser daily and remaining honest with my husband are the keys to my recovery. Be gentle with yourself, you are going through a rough time and there is no benefit in beating up on yourself. For today, worry about your own program...if you work a strong and solid program, you will know intuitively what to do when your boyfriend comes home. *(WE) PROMISE*
Michelle.