Originally Posted by
zjw 
they the line "you dont have a drinking problem you have a thinking problem" comes to mind. I know i was pretty far gone in my thoughts.
to tomsteves point I know for me i had to get up every day and start the sobriety process all over again it seemed like. every day it took a great deal of work and effort to do what i had to do in order to remain sober. I can see how one could sorta subconciously just wonder into a liquor store get a bottle and drink. I could see myself getting complacent and doing something like that I guess I just try to keep the finger on the pulse of my alcoholism each day so that I dont wonder off and do soemthing like that or slip down a slippery slope etc...
many days in the beginning i felt where crap and crappier cuase i couldnt sovle them with booze. now I just realize that some days are just crap the booze part of the equation is irrelevant. The only thing booze will do to a crap day is make it crappier. and to a good day make it crappier. I guess the point is in the begining there was a lot of "UGG IF ONLY I COULD JUST DRINK !!! GRRRR" now that really doesnt happen and if it does its a fairly mild sensation that is easily just shrugged off.
I completely agree that staying sober is a daily commitment, coupled with prayer to God for help.
I also have the AA program that I try to work hard on a daily basis.
In recovery, we can't take a day off.
When I was in treatment, I was looking (and hoping) for something more empirical and scientific than the 12 Steps to help me stay sober, but that was all they offered to me and I was rather light on options.
It's worked, on a daily basis, ever since.
I hope that Steve gets the help he needs to get and stay sober.
My sobriety is the biggest gift I have ever received.
I cherish and protect it everyday.