Originally Posted by
steve-in-kville 
Gotta figure everything out on my own.
that doesn't read to work too good for ya,stevie. in fact, figuring it out on your own seems to get ya drunk.
AND this comment contradicts what you said here:
and I need professional help to peel back the layers of the onion.
James 2:14-18
14 What does it profit, my brethren, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can faith save him? 15 If a brother or sister is naked and destitute of daily food, 16 and one of you says to them, “Depart in peace, be warmed and filled,” but you do not give them the things which are needed for the body, what does it profit? 17 Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead.
18 But someone will say, “You have faith, and I have works.” Show me your faith without your[a] works, and I will show you my faith by my works
nothing changes is nothing changes.
doing the same thing over and over expecting different results is insanity.
sure hope youre ready to get into action.