Originally Posted by
Santideva 
I want this to work so much. I don't want to drink. I hate that I am shortening my life and I hate feeling like I can't go home without making sure that I have enough vodka in the freezer for tonight.
I felt like this and told myself I was going to quit drinking hundreds of times during my 27 years of daily drinking.
Thinking it and doing it are two different things. I always found a reason to keep drinking.
111 days ago the booze wasn't working for me anymore and I knew in my heart and soul it was going to kill me soon if I didn't stop.
We can make all the plans we want to quit - we will know in our hearts and souls when we are finally ready.