Am I attached to him too? You betcha. It just feels a bit more balanced and comfortable vs. what is he doing and thinking every second of the day.
you might wanna give that above statement another look.......nothing described heretofor sounds anything like what a balanced and comfortable person would do. in fact, you've done a great job of analyzing HIS every flaw and shortcoming, with details of his drunken vomit spewing, soil himself action. HIS cheating, HIS addiction, now HIS obsession.
all circles back around to the fact that YOU choose him over and over and over again.
why. that is the real question.