OMD, I think the dream of moderation will always linger on in the deep recesses of our minds. We are addicts and it is to be expected that at some level there will remain a desire to use again.
I had a crappy night at work last night, with three people calling out, leaving me desperately short handed. In the back of my mind, I secretly wished for a minute that I could go home and have a few drinks "just to unwind." Of course, I know that would be pure folly on my part. I settled for hot chocolate instead!
Have a great day all!