Originally Posted by
anyak313 
I've only been sober for 22 days but I still get a similar feeling. I just wake up go to my classes, workout a little then repeat the next day. I feel like I'm white knuckling my way through life as opposed to enjoying it. I've tried AA before and really didn't like it. I'm 27 and whenever I went to meetings that were around me and fit with my schedule it was mostly all middle aged men. Couldn't really find a common ground with anyone. I definitely feel better physically, but mentally not so much. Sorry if I'm ranting here lol
Your'e not alone, alot of us struggle with this. Im 30 and I know the pain, the feeling off everyday, having thoughts in your head you didnt have before you started drinking, wondering if that's the real you meantally, or if that's from alcohol abuse. Wondering why you have these "mean streaks" and feeling like you dont' even know yourself anymore, not feeling like a "normal" person. Your'e not alone, i just hope you go through your day realizing that.