for a long time, I watched (what I thought) was happy, recovered, recovering or any people Together, Happy... Couples... And then thought, why isn't this for me or why couldn't it be for me... Now with as much as I went thru, I can still think like that... but have also come to the place, of Indeed Acceptance... Because this is the way my life is and I haven't had those experiences And It's Ok Now, just being here in my life, with my sister/brothers, aunts, uncles, cousins or friends. It's really going to be alright.