Welcome Cherry! I am another Momma of a RAS who's drugs of choice are heroin and meth. 6 long weary years of the relapse-recover-repeat cycle. I can only say that the one thing that keeps me sane in any of these cycles is to detach and love my son (sometimes from a distance) and NOT get involved in his choices. I do support his choices to recover and love to spend time with sober JJ, but when he goes astray, I have to detach. Recovery and Relapse do not look or feel the same. Your gut knows the difference.
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