Originally Posted by
Providence9 
I packed my car for California (this is where my family is, but we had a home in Pennsylvania), left a note for him, took our puppy and drove across the country with a broken heart and in shock about what I had just done. It took everything in me to not turn the car around.
^^^ Been there and boy-howdy was it hard.
Alanon can be helpful for what you are going through and as you have noticed it is super hard to walk/drive/crawl/get-the-heck-out-of-dodge.
I hope you are settling down in California and finding all the support you can get.