Hey it's me again just sticking my head in and spouting my own update. It happened again and this time Bf and I did fight, we got saparated then reunited last night, and fought through some pretty intense depression and I was the scary one today. SO it's back to the program for BOTH of us. We are jumping back on the wagon together and we are going to hold each other accountable. Of course I do spend most of my week alone so I realize that I'm largely on a solo journey. That's good though. I can tell that Bf is ready again too. I'm so relieved. Well, one more try here.