Before I came to SR my record was 2 months whee I'd neither drank nor smoked weed.
I had a few 'ego ticklers' early on where I'd been around smokers and drinkers and stayed clean and sober - but that passed..
mostly I was angry and miserable because all my friends still drank and smoked weed.
One night I said eff it and took the bong that was offered. I'm pretty sure I went out to buy beer that same night...may as well get hung for a sheep as a lamb, right?
I do remember my thoughts - if these guys can do it and not seem to suffer for it, I should be able to as well.
I had yet to accept my problem.
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