A word about kindling
I heard about this phenomena some time ago by someone who posted about it on SR.
After much careful deliberation and a hell of a lot of practice and it's disastrous consequences I now firmly and fully believe in kindling.
Each and every single time I pick up a drink - after a time of sobriety - I experience exactly the same behavior. Period of sobriety. Think:"mmm just a little glass". Absolutely fine. Take another little glass, say a few days later. Take 2/3 glasses now. Thinking: "I'm fine!!!!!!" 😂😩😂😩😂😩. Very very shortly now: BANG......huge bender. Every. Single. Time. Xxx