Originally Posted by
gzmkci 
İll do that sir but i need her before atart over again. We hawe 8 years of relationship its not easy to live even 1 day without her. İts already 2 days i want her back
I know it's hard gzmicki, but unfortunately you might have to accept that she's not coming back until you get sober. It doesn't seem fair of course, but the reality is that there is nothing you can say that will undo what you've done, and you are responsible for your behavior and words, even if you didn't mean to say what you said.
The only way out of the hole you've dug is to get sober. And there are plenty of places you can go to get help doing that...you just have to make the decision to do it.