Thank you all for your kind replies. I'm disappointed to say that I drank the other 1/2 of the bottle last night...but I'm so ready to be done. I hate the foggy headed feeling, the dizziness, the not knowing what happened when I was blacked out.....I hate how it destroyed my childhood, and now my adulthood..I hate it...I'm done.
One of my biggest memories I have from my childhood is my dad (he's been solber for 30 yrs, God bless him) hanging me out a 2 story window after a night of drinking....I was terrified....I have always hated heights....dad went to AA, got his stuff together...he's a wonderful man, I want to be just like him