Thanks y'all! It's been a struggle as I'm figuring out more about myself than I think I've ever wanted to know, but I really am trying to let go. My Melody Beattie book should be here today (usps said the business was closed, but I shipped to a friend's house so I'm trying not to be irritable about it lol)l. Lyysy posted some books that I'm looking into too.
My biggest issue is letting myself sink back into that mental state where all I do is worry and fret and dread. That's no way to live. I'm coming to terms with that and doing my best. I will continue to try to make whatever progress I can. I'm also putting a portion of my paycheck aside each pay period so that if there's an emergency and I need to leave, it won't hurt me to do so.
Y'all are constantly helping me and I cannot thank each and every one of you enough. It means so much to me that there's a group of people who understand and care.