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Old 01-15-2017, 05:39 AM
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Originally Posted by shortstop81 View Post
Phew, made it through the day! Thanks my friends.

My meeting was good - it was a member's 10 year medallion. Although inspiring, it's hard to fathom getting to that point at this stage of my recovery.

I was thinking of a metaphor to try explain how my cravings have felt the past few weeks. So, imagine you're doing a polar swim and you've submerged your half naked body into icy water. Now imagine how freezing cold it is, the water like icy needles jabbing into your raw skin. How long can you hold it until you leap from the water yelling 'I GIVE' before running to the nearest hot sauna for relief?
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For the first time in my sobriety I had a close call yesterday.
I realize that when the stress builds up I could blow a fuse which I did yesterday I screamed at my husband......" I'm going to drink Im going to ****** drink" I was shaking and I was thinking how all these problems I was dealing with would melt away in my head with that first drink. The thing is they would still be there when I sober up......I didn't drink and the AV went away in about a half hour it was pretty strong I beat with a stick.
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