Thanks all...the thing that gets me is the physical pain..like a stabbing down my spine. Now I recognize that as my sign that I am NOT in a good place and I need to go home and take some ibuprofen and get some sleep. Glad I am not the only one this still happens to. I am over a year in my journey (minus about 5 slips - one time deals - not long relapses) so I still have that fear that it could happen at any time even though in my heart I don't want it to happen. It's the dead of winter where I am and it's hard because I can't really just walk away from some situations. Anyhow...I do still have the desire to stay sober and I am doing it one day (and sticky situation) at a time...thanks 😎