Algorhithm did nail it--I also had to choose family & job or drink,
but the most important person to maintaining my sobriety was me all along.
Nobody poured the alcohol down my throat when I relapsed but me and my excuses.
By the same token, I have stayed sober and in recovery myself,
and frankly it wouldn't matter if my spouse was or wasn't in my life.
It's about me and my choices around drinking.
Trust can be rebuilt, but it will take time and more importantly actions
that continue over time.
You can do this if you accept where you are--you've got an addiction, not a bad habit-- and put 110 % into dealing with it.