I do remember my drinking days, enfin. They were awful. Initially just quitting alcohol resulted in major positive changes. But i kept smoking of course, and if you are using a substance you never learn to deal with the core issues that stem from addiction. I think a major hang up is how insidious weed is. With alcohol i would black out, have terrible hangovers, get in fights. That didnt happen with weed. But as i look back it is so clear how much weed has held me back from SO much in my life. Wasted college ed. Wasted TIME!!