In the last few years everyday I would say this has to stop, I am going to stop, how hard can it be, just stop! I tried moderating and I tried stopping.
I was on a continual cycle of quitting and drinking, a few days here and there, even a few months here and there...deep inside me I knew I was an alcoholic but the denial was hard to cut through and face it.
Acknowledging that I was an alcoholic was the game changer. No longer could I deceive myself that I could moderate or have just one!...I guess I started making real progress then.