Hey Vulcan
I'm not preaching here but try and put away the alcohol first and deal with social stuff after ......... In the midst of my addiction I would be having panic attacks going to the off license at night time , SCARED !
You live near a coastal town ?, that's great , check out outdoor options
The majority of conversations with fellow Surfers are just small talk , .. the waves , the weather , did you have a good session blah blah blah but occasionally there is a connection , loads of pricks out there too.
You're mostly alone out there which is the best part , getting back to yourself , a therapist once told me once you find yourself you wont be alone