How much is too much for me? The amount that I can't NOT have. Even after a long hiatus from drinking. If I can't leave it alone, it is a problem. I was never in trouble when not drinking/drugging. When I was, alcohol was always involved.
It took me 20 years of "moderation" and "taking a break from drinking because ______" to realize that alcoholism is not about the amount. "But I'm only drinking on weekends!!", I cried. Remove alcohol from ME and I'm left with "ic". Do I want to do something about it? I did....because I wanted to be happy and free.
Glad you are here. :-)