I fooled myself for many years in thinking I didn't have a dependency to alcohol.
During the first 5 years I drank 6 - 12 beers everyday with an occasional shot. I then graduated to whiskey and drank up to a liter everyday for about 4 years. I then went back to beer, wine and occasional hard liquor and drank 8 - 15 drinks everyday for the last 16 or so years.
Even in my 27th year of daily drinking I fooled myself into thinking I wasn't that bad - I estimate I drank well over 100,000 drinks in 27 years.
Today at 73 days sober and with a clearer mind I feel that was too much,