Originally Posted by
Dexter1007 
I'm going crazy,my brain is screaming. I am having anxiety attacks which are paralysing me. I have suicidal thoughts, but I have had them on and off for 20 years. I know they will pass. I can not answer things straight away on here my anxiety is that bad. Is there anything I can do to feel better? I tried exercise but nearly smashed my own skull in with a dumbbell. Back to the drawing board on that one.
If you feel in danger, get medical help. Otherwise you are going to experience a few days of being uncomfortable and "weird". It WILL calm down and when it does it is such a relief. You have to be patient. Sleep will likely elude you for a few nights as well. Don't drink, you will start over. You're doing great, hang in there.