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Old 01-02-2017, 06:05 PM
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BrendaChenowyth
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Originally Posted by Ken33xx View Post
A better question is what do you think?

For me the answer is yes. I picked up the bottle. Nobody else.

When I was new in sobriety it began to dawn on me how much of a mess I had made of my life.

But I found solace in this... on one side of the coin I wish I had gotten sober younger and perhaps life might have been different. On the other side because of my drinking history I under no illusion I can drink responsibly.

I'm 59 years old and skipped the middle life crisis some men talk about. True I wasted the prime years of my life but for the last twenty I've been busy.

Last thing... nobody is harder on me than myself. I have to avoid self-flagellation. Imo, the past never really goes away but you learn over time to move on. You learn to deal with what is happening today.
What I think... is that when I was under the influence of alcohol it prevented me from seeing the consequences of my behaviors...
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