i think it's like going camping for a week "off the grid" - no plumbing, no electricity. and while you are there, you don't really mind that each day you get grubbier and grubbier, and everything you wear has fish scales and fire soot and god knows what else. and something has made a nest in your hair.
it's all "ok".............until you are no longer out there at the campsite, off the grid. and then suddenly all you want is a hot shower and to burn all the clothing you took with you. you want the accumulated ook OFF you.
you don't HATE the experience, you actually have a few good memories, but you no longer want to WEAR IT. you want to cleanse and feel renewed.
forgiveness means we finally allow our past to BE our past.