Sorry this is so rediculously late. Thank you for all the replies. I did stay strong( I slept and worked a lot to switch off!). I reached out to a friend in AA and got more support also. I'm in a much better place now. Had tee total tea with family Christmas Day and today and went to the cinema with a friend today too. In bed now reading to have a peaceful entry to the new year. I believe 2017 will be a great. I hope the new year is a great one for all of you. X