It's just a few hours. Stay sober one hour at a time if you need to. And if yiu can look up and get to a meeting so you see the New Year in with some new sober fellows, so much the better.
Honestly, you're not missing anything different tonight to what you've missed for the last 31. Play the tape forward. What would happen if you had that drink tonight. How will you feel in the morning walking up with that sinking feeling knowing you blew that sobriety and are back to day 0? How would you feel coming get on here and saying you drank? Or even better, read through your post that you wrote last time you carried through with the compulsion and didn't push through the discomfort...
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-5-months.html We all have choices to make every day in sobriety. Make a good un tonight.
What have you been doing to stay sober for the past month? Is there something that has been in place that is absent tonight? (Sometimes when we're out of our routine, standard things in our plan can slip). Have you checked those HALT triggers?
Stick with us. You can do this.