I just found this thread and I don't think I've related to anything on this forum so well. I have lurked around here for a while looking for inspiration and hope to quit drinking AGAIN and this just really resonates with me.
I'm a husband and father that works full time in a very profitable career from 7 am until 4pm, but on the way home from the office I stop and get my first two 24 ounce beers and drink them either on the way home or parked down the street from my house and dispose of them. Then, I proceed with my evening of drinking almost never less than another 12 beers, and really probably more, before eating and going right to bed.
I've repeated this process for almost 4 years now with intermittent periods of sobriety, the longest being 3 months. I've gained 100 pounds during that time and am really facing a life or death situation at this point.