I'm with SnazzyDresser on that one Rubythrill.
I went to AA for some time, but don't really fit with "meeting" type formats, it always felt fake to me lol. I felt fake.
There are many ways to get sober Ruby, and more good books to read as you say. Ways and means that suit "your personality", as SnazzyDresser says.
I think direct help is a good idea too. Can you access a good counsellor for both alcohol and anxiety?