Congrats on beginning your recovery journey.
In my drinking days I associated certain occasions and activities with alcohol. How could I ever get through Christmas without (insert favourite alcohol-holiday drink) or go camping without cases of beer?
But once I experienced these things sober, I realized that I didn't need the booze in the first place. Alcohol would typically just mar the occasion for me anyway, and I appreciate now that I can be in the moment and fully experience the event.
Either way, it's a process and it takes time. Our addictive voice likes to tell us that life is gonna suck without alcohol, but it's all just sweet little lies. Eventually this voice gets quieter.