Hi Bleurgh - I'm so glad you are here with us. Like SoberLeigh, I'm sad you feel unfairly questioned or condemned. I hope you'll stay for the wonderful understanding and encouragement that we intend to provide.
I once drank like you are. Over the years I grew increasingly dependent on it. I never questioned my drinking the way you're doing - I just tried to use willpower to control it. As a result, I was drinking every day in the end - I had dui's, a nearly ruined life. It took 30 yrs. of pretending I could be a normal drinker for my world to come crashing down. So - be proud of yourself for taking a hard look at what drinking is doing (or could do) to your life. Please stay.
