I'm sorry Doug. I'm feeling the awkwardness of the holidays too. I'm thankful that my family is having an alcohol free dinner tonight, but I can't help but feel like I'm keeping others from having a good time. I didn't ask for it to be alcohol free and it's with a side of the family I don't know well. Feeling self conscious but not going to drink. Good luck to you Doug. Take timeouts on this thread as needed.