Welcome back B. Sorry you are having a hard time. Quitting drinking is what you should try and focus on now, it's making everything worse and the first step to making things better will be to stop. Regarding your work commitments, perhaps you could give some of them to others or just let someone know that yoiu aren't able to do them right now? It's better to be upfront with those kinds of things. I'm not suggesting you should tell anyone that your drinking is the cause of the problems with your work, but just let them know that you won't be able to do some of it until later?