I am sorry you are here but I am glad you found us. There is only one thing I can say. is that you deserve better!! Life with an alcoholic is not at all easy and is a constant roller coaster of good and bad. It is emotionally draining and devastating and super hard. Keep that in mind because with an alcoholic, alcohol is always first and foremost. They protect the drink above all else. They will chose alcohol over their families. Read up and educate yourself on the disease. Some do recover and do so successfully but statistics show the vast majority never will. 90 something percent do not stay sober. That is not to say your BF wont be one the 10 percent that does. My advice is to set strong boundaries about what behaviors you are willing to accept, take things slow and do not settle for what he could be, accept what he is right now.