Day 1 for me
Been drinking 3 to 6 16oz
8% beers a night for about 3 years now. Tried to keep it to just weekends or only 2 beers on a weeknight. Wake up daily telling myself im going to stay sober today.
By the time evening comes I get in a foul mood. Feel bad my family has to put up with my mood then I give in and there goes 3 to 4 beers down.
I just know I cant do this anymore. I only feel happy if im buzzed. I have tons to be happy about but cant see it if im not buzzed.
This isnt living and I know it. I just want to get through today. Scared of withdrawl and all the numbed feelings coming back. My kids need a sober mom. I just want to give them that.
Going to do my best to stay positive. I want this more than anything right now.