I like my life today.
Sometimes I wish I had two heads on my mantelpiece...one that represented how I felt and thought 7/8 years ago at the end of my drinking, and one that represented how I feel and think today. Whenever I was frustrated I would put my old head on and remember "Holy sh1t! I'm glad it's not like that today"
People said that to me in early sobriety. They said "I wish I could give you my head today so you can understand how much better you'll feel"...I get that now, I really do. Love my life, don't want the old one back.
Hang in there friend
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