Heart, you nailed it. Couldn't figure out why I felt some shame or guilt, all of a sudden I was expecting myself to be some pure, do-good, organized, eat healthy, fit person. Time for some of my old ways is okay, whole days reading, eating whatever.
Still, thanks for ideas and info on PAWS. Since I quit arthritis in legs painful, been adding Epsom to the bath not even knowing other benefits.
I like being sober.